A Note on Failure

hello dead blog of mine, let’s talk. I started this blog to share some random experience or knowledge that I might have as a college student, you know like every other girl in college does. I thought it would be a fun little side project that would give me a nice outlet for frustration or creativity or whatever I needed but I made a mistake that kinda made me suck as a blogger, I started researching.

Before I started my blog I read tons of Pinterest posts about how to be the best new blogger, how to make 2400 dollars in your first month of blogging, and basically how to blog like everyone else is blogging. The thing is, that’s fake and disingenuous coming from me. I tried my best to do everything and write everything the other bloggers said to do but it just didn’t work for me so I quit. I failed. It seemed like I had waisted money paying for a self hosted website for no good reason, I wasn’t blogging so my website was just collecting digital dust. It felt like this pit in my stomach of not being good enough. That feeling of not being good enough goes right along with failure and it sucks. Here’s the thing though, we might fail in our tasks we set out for ourselves but that does not make us failures! We are created by a God who knows who we are and loves us anyway, failures and all. It’s not about failing, it’s about what you do after you fail.

The truth of me blogging is that I don’t know anything. I’m not good with grammar, I don’t really care about SEO, I’m not about to pay for advertising, but I’ve come to realize that that’s okay. The main point of today is that failure is okay, everyone fails at one point in their life. Failure doesn’t matter today, what matters is how you come back from that failure. What did you learn from failing that you can use in the future? In my failing with this blog I learned that I truly cannot conform to the patterns of this world, I can’t just fake my way through this. I have to be real, I have to be me. So here I am, my name is Tayler, I’m a biology major, and I’m just trying my best.